I squeeze my eyes shut against the blinding rays of the sun. My eyes water in response to the overwhelming light, everything blurry and unclear.
Uncertainty fills my mind. “I’m not sure this is a good idea. I mean, all that talk of freedom, battle, adventure, and beauty sounded great. But now?”
The cave looks so inviting from the heat of the sun. I take a look back as a drop of sweat falls from my chin, my body shifting involuntarily in the direction of the dark. I murmur, “It sure is hot out here,” as I squint back up at the fiery ball of gas.
It was cool in the cave. I could see just fine in there, at least when the fire was lit. It was predictable. I felt safe. Comfortable.
The voice of my Guide penetrates my thoughts. “The buzzards are circling.” I had forgotten about Him, momentarily stunned by the explosion of light and heat. I turn back toward Him, my eyes growing to tolerate the glare.
He was looking up into a cloudless azure sky, hand raised to shade His eyes. He pointed. “The buzzards.” He directed His gaze at me. “They don’t think you’ll make it either.”
His words strike my heart like a sledgehammer. I drop to my knees as tears fall, making tracks in the dirt on my face. Looking down at my knees, I whisper in a strangled voice, “I can’t do this. It’s too hard. I want to go back.” The tears fall faster as the vocalization of my failure makes it come to life. My head slumps to the ground as I give in to demons of doubt.
The smell of dirt fills my nostrils as I startle at the sound of gravel crunching by my ear. I feel a touch on my left shoulder. Peace spreads out from that spot like ripples from a pebble thrown into a glassy lake. I catch my breath and look up to see my Guide kneeling next to me, a half-smile on His lips as He looks down.
“You finished? We’ve got to keep going. There’s so much more to see. There’s so much more I want to show you.”
Walking the Path
Before you answer these questions, please take a minute to quiet your heart and mind, and ask Jesus to reveal the answers to you.
There is no purple pill. What has called to you from the dark of the cave? What thoughts and patterns have you fallen back into?
In what areas of your life have you experienced struggle? Marriage? Kids? Work? Relationships? Where have you felt like giving up?
The Guide says, “There’s more to see.” What “more” is being offered to you?